The things we do

Why do we do the things that we do? Why do we make the choices that we make? Are we destined to be where we are now?

Its kinda hard to contemplate on these things, especially while your alone in your room thinking about the future and asking yourself about the choices that you made. It all seems to depressing but it also gives me this feeling of Hope. Hope that someday, I will look back to this day and say "Hey, look at where you are now. This wouldn't be happening if you didn't pass by that road." Come to think of it, I've been doing this thing all my life. Back when I was still in college, I was thinking about things that I wanted to do after I graduate. Looking back now I see that some of them I already did. Even the simplest desire of driving a Volkswagen Beetle. Man that car was a pain in the ass, but actually I really had fun during that time. I also thought about teaching. I wanted to share what I have experienced with other people and I wanted them to learn from my successes and my failures. At this time, I've been teaching for two years now.

The thing is, my dreams and my prayers are being answered. Not right away of course, but they are. And I thank God for each and everyone of them. I also thank Him for not giving those things right away because the longer I wait and I strive to reach those dreams, the longer I will enjoy them once I have reached them. As new developments unfold in my life, I again come to this point. Thinking of my future, thinking of the choices that I have to make and asking the Lord for guidance. Because I know he will not foresake me. He knows what's best for me and he has perfect timing. And because I know that He is there, I am certain that He will always make a way.

I have been waiting for Him to send me someone to share my life with. Someone to treasure and someone who will treasure me back. And now I find myself looking back to the day I asked Him for this special someone and I smile because it really has been a long time. But I don't regret every single moment that I have waited because not only did He answer me, He gave me someone so much more than I ever wanted. And even though we are far apart, I am happy and grower deeper in love with her everyday. I know I will look back again one day, with the sound of church bells ringing in the background, and say "Hey, look at where you are now."